Delayed... not Defeated

So… marathon training:  It’s not happening. I haven’t felt very encouraged to blog about my progress because I’ve been going backwards. Not only do I have the excuses used by everyone that,  “I don’t have enough time”, “I’m too busy”, I also have a stubborn left knee that refuses to get on board with my 2012 Goals list. I want to run sooo badly but my legs aren’t cooperating. I’m sure that this is my body’s way of making a point, which I can’t ignore, that it’s tired from completing all of my other goals this year.

I’m officially “downgraded” to running the SB half marathon in a few weeks instead of the full. Downgraded you say? I know. I realize I’m talking crazy for most of you reading this. I should be stoked that I’m not even phased by running 13 miles, and do admit it’s a little ridiculous to be super bummed out that I’m only running 13 miles instead of the 26 I was hoping for.

Don’t worry… already signed up for the LA Marathon in March. Delayed… not defeated. Goal for 2012 2013: run a marathon. Among other things…. ;)

In the meantime I will be besties with Ibuprofen, a foam roller, ice, a PT (Geoff I’m counting on you!), and my knee brace. Oh, how I LOVE my knee brace. I can run a slow painful 4 to 5 miles with it on, versus not wearing and having much limping and crying involved after only running 1 mile. It’s pa-thet-ic.  I suppose that now is as good of time as ever to focus on my swimming “skills” if I’m attempting to complete an IronMan in the near future. (Wait, what?)

Also, in unrelated news I’m MOVING! (Finally, right?!) Just to a different part of the city, but I’m so excited for a change… AND a roomie AND awesome neighbors ;). I broke the news to my sweet, generous grandparents last night… I told them I had very exciting news for them to which my grandpa immediately replied “you’re finally getting married??” God bless him. “Mmmm… no…. grandpa, I’m not. I’m just moving out 3 years after I told you that this was only a temporary living situation, & thought you’d be excited about it.” Delayed… not defeated.

This will also delay my plan to get a “better” bike with aero bars. Less than 1 year & I already want an upgrade!! It’s unfortunate that I can’t bring my current bike in & just exchange it for a different one. J

So with many things athletic and personal, I will accept *temporary* delays and not be or feel defeated. Oh, United Airlines would be SO proud of me for saying that (which is a WHOLE other story which I can tell you if you’re having a bad day… it’ll make you feel a lot better). I think I’m beginning to understand & respect the mantra that I’ve heard a few of you use: 

Relentless. Forward. Progress.

Race Report Digression

I’m definitely going to sign up for more sprint triathlons – they’re super fun! And for me, way more practical at this point J. The Carpinteria Triathlon was a bit harder to train for only because I felt like I got too busy with LIFE to put training as a priority. My life has shifted from having track workouts, Nite Moves, or group rides and swims everyday to my volunteer work plus trying to get in more face time with family, friends and also not be a complete disaster in the dating realm.

With little training, I was pleasantly surprised with my performance last weekend. I came in 7^th in my age division and had a great race with no injuries, flat tires or shark bites, great weather and great support. For this race I felt like I was actually competing against people instead of watching everyone fly by me. Granted I still felt like that during the swim, but on the bike and run course I was actually PASSING people. I have a lot of swim work to do before my next race since it’s without a doubt my weakest area, but overall it felt really great. And FUN! Again… love the sprint distances. For anyone reading this who hasn’t done a tri (but I know you wannnnt tooooo!!), please do what normal people do & sign up for the sprint distance FIRST.

Do as I say, not as I do ;)

Now I can “fully” concentrate on my upcoming marathon. Yes I know – it never ends! I have about 5 weeks to feel comfortable running 26.2 miles, which at this point seems really scary and unattainable. WHY a FULL marathon?? It hurts. The training hurts my body more than it did for the triathlon. I’m also still swimming a few times a week & incorporating yoga in as much as I can for cross-training. I’m realizing that training for a marathon requires yoga and foam rollers as much as it does running!

It’s crazy to think that one year ago I was training for the half-marathon which, at the time, seemed like a huge undertaking. Now I’m running distances longer than the half as my TRAINING runs. My legs are absolutely not happy about this, but my ego thinks it’s pretty cool. As much as I complain, I really love it though. Not the pain, but everything else. Pushing your body (& mind a lot of the time) and being temporarily (super) uncomfortable is worth the rewards that come with it. Double entendre? Kidding?

Not sure that I can be a marathon advocate as much as one for doing a triathlon at this point. Will keep you posted as promised. I can say though… running 15 miles yesterday has erased ALL guilt of me sitting here right now listening to Louis Armstong’s “La Vie En Rose”, enjoy the “Fall” weather & write… with chai tea… and cookies… sleeping in until 8, even. I’m not sure I can sell you on running 20+ miles, but I can sell you on how great recovery days can be.

I’ll try & do a better job keeping up with blogging with my last few intense weeks of training for the year. I’m hoping I won’t have too many training woes. Maybe I’ll just it into a running forum: ex: “what 4-5 hours of music do you listen to on your iPod?”, “how long am I allowed to stay in the ice bath?”

I digressed a bit from my original plan to have this entry be a race report on Carp. So…. ahhh, yes basically Carp is really as great as everyone says it is & I would most definitely do it again. J

 

P.S. If anyone knows great Seattle running routes (cough, Maddie) let me know

The Morning After

I couldn’t have asked for a better race day. I had everything I needed, the weather was perfect, my tires didn’t blow out, had no injuries, and I finished the race with a number next to my name. Not a 1^st place number, but not a last place either. For my 1^st BIG race, I have already criticized so many parts of the race that I need to work on for next time (yeah, we all knew that was going to happen). At the same time, I couldn’t be happier. I completed the race, therefore completing my original goal, proved to myself that I can mentally and physically do/get through things I previously thought impossible, and MOST OF ALL…. MOST MOST MOST of all… the people!! I think that in just about all of my blogs I’ve mentioned how amazing the people are and I’m going to keep on doing it... because it’s that important to mention.

I’ve been asked a lot why I decided to sign up for long-course triathlon (especially for my first race!) and a big part of that is the people. Of course there are other “minor” things like… wanting to challenge myself, being in THE best shape of my life, and having the satisfaction of accomplishing a huge personal goal. I couldn’t have made it through 5 months of training and the actual race itself without moral support (and GU). I can’t begin to express how grateful I am to have so much love, encouragement, training tips, etc etc from such wonderful people. But for now at least… thank you family, thank you friends, thank you coaches & trainers, thank you spectators, and thank you fellow athletes & training buddies.

Today, as I was enjoying my first morning off in a while and taking time to reflect, came to the realization that many others have come to… the reason to continue to race, train and to keep signing up and showing up. It’s not just about how well you do in a race (although important), it’s about overall health, about commitment to personal growth, about being part of a COMMUNITY of people who value the same lifestyle. I feel that after doing this race, I’m beginning to truly understand what it’s all about.

As cheesy as this is, the past 6 months of training, supporting and racing have been the most fulfilling and gratifying months I’ve probably ever had in my life. I mean it! Mentally, physically and emotionally satisfaction…  all bundled up in just one race. Another question I’ve been asked a lot is “will I sign up for another race or do this again?”. It’s not really an easy yes or no answer for me. Actually… let me rephrase that… it’s not an easy YES answer. YES means committing more time, committing my mind and body to more goals, making lifestyle changes to keep myself in the shape I need to be in for what I want to accomplish. Which is still TBD, btw. Ultimately, the answer to that is: I want to accomplish everything that I possibly can. I don’t know what that means yet or what my limit is or if I even have a limit, but I will never know unless I try to find it.

So… my answer is YES.

But it’s not a light-hearted yes, because I’ve carefully considered all of the aforementioned commitments and know that by saying yes, I’m accepting responsibility to keep myself disciplined, to be held accountable, to keep signing up and showing up even when I hate every second of it. I understand this is no small undertaking, and as I progress it will even less small, but I also know without a single shred of doubt in mind that I want this. “This” meaning the feeling of accomplishing a great goal and working hard and honestly for it, the feeling of surprising even yourself of what you can accomplish and looking at how far you’ve made it, the feeling of having great relationships with people… with a community… that want all of the same things you do and knowing we’re all here to help each other.

At this point I’m not exactly sure where I’m headed (aside from a full marathon in November. Ha!), I just know the general direction I want to go and WILL go with an open heart, open mind and open arms… welcoming more challenges, relationships and self-discoveries.

So I, Erica, take thee [insert race], to be my lifestyle, and before God and these Facebook witnesses and blog followers, I promise to be a faithful and true trainer/ee  give it my best. I will love you AND hate you, take comfort AND soreness, in sickness and in health, in wealth and poverty (unless I find some sponsors), 'til death do us part I say so and will forever do my best to pay it forward.

 

"Triathlon doesn't build character. It reveals it."- Unbekannt

 

See y’all out there. Much love and thanks,

-E

Daydreamin'

My race is THIS month! 22 days to be exact. Time sure flies when you’re training. I have to constantly remind myself of how far I’ve come physically and mentally since I started. Conversely, I have to remind myself to not get so discouraged with body that it can’t do everything I want it to… yet.

In the broad scheme of things I am still very “green” with the training, racing, logistics, etc. compared to a lot of people I train with who’ve been at it for years. It has been extremely beneficial (and humbling!) to train with and to be surrounded by seasoned racers. I’m truly grateful to the moon and back for all of the patience, support and training tips I’ve received in the past few months. THANK YOU GUYS!!!!! You know who you are. I’ll also have you know that it’s really frustrating for me to constantly try and be on your level. Almost makes me want to sign up for an IronMan one day (baaaaaahahahahahahahaha)…

Almost.

Running update: Not much to say here except more often than not I’m getting the relaxed “euphoric” feeling (without music, even) versus the “ohmygawd…kill me now” feeling. Oh – and I’m most definitely getting faster! Thank you track workouts.

Swimming: I’m staying under 30min now for the Nite Moves swim! A horrific time for you, but always a PR for me. I feel like I actually have swimming lungs now and am pretty comfortable swimming about a mile & a half during my swim practices. Still in the geriatric lane (lane 1) but I can honestly say that I really enjoy swimming. Not only does it make my muscles feel great, it also allows me time for a lot (a LOT) of daydreaming.  Practice (& races) really fly by and are a lot more pleasant when I imagine myself winning gold medals and accepting Ryan Lochte’s marriage proposal rather than counting my strokes every 100 meters. My imagination has no bounds and ZERO shame.

Biking: ohhh biking. I would love nothing more than to chuck my bike off a cliff after lighting it on fire and doing a ceremonial dance. I’m able to go the distance and can tackle the hills pretty well, but I’m still bitter about my wipeout and can’t seem to get over my fear of going downhill. I know… it’s supposed to be the fun part. The RELIEF. For me I’d prefer to race uphill because I can actually full out race and not grab my brakes the whole way. My bike & I have been spending a lot of quality time together & have gone through what I consider the “scary” parts of course over and over and over, but I can’t seem to get past my residual fear of eating shit… err… asphalt again.  

General: I have to say that overall, mentally and physically, training for the race has been SO great. I think this applies at all levels. Whether it’s “couch to 5k”, a Tri, IM, marathon, etc. it’s such a great feeling to know that you’re improving yourself and can get to the realization of  “wow I can actually DO this!”. I’m finally at the point where I’m very much looking forward to this race. I know I’m not the fastest but I know that I’m capable. Although I still have 3 whole weeks…

Tri Trial Try #1

Greeting from the French Press!

As you can tell, I’m hard at work today J. As a birthday present to myself I took the day off of work. Now before you get any ideas of foul play (which is going dowwwwn tomorrow) or me being a complete slacker, I’ll have you know that I was in the pool at 5:45am for my usual practice & incorporated that into the completion of the SB Long Course. I think I’ve finally found my swimming lungs, now I just need to know how to get faster. A LOT faster. This is problem #1.

And yes, you read correctly. This morning I completed the SB long course solo (with a few modifications: 1- substituting the ocean for the heated pool, and 2- using my house as the transition area). I swam 1700m so it’s equivalent to the distance I would be swimming in the Tri. I will not, repeat, WILL NOT, go ocean swimming by myself. I just know that when I do it’ll be the ONE time killer sharks decide that East Beach is a great feeding area. It's also Friday the 13th. I'm not taking any chances.

And it’s colddddddd!!

The cycling went fine… my average was 16mph meaning almost 30 on the downhills (my favorite!) and 10 on the uphills. The hills weren’t so bad after doing the half century ride up to Big Sur. My clip-ins and I seem to be bonding rather nicely with the exception of 1 spastic “almost” far into a pile of leaves. Let me explain that this was not the fault of the clip-ins, just my ability to complete spaz out. Which happens quite often.  Wha ha happen was… I was attempting to unscrew the top on my camelback and the cap flew off & water started spilling everywhere on me and my bike, so I tried to pull off on the side of the road to fix it & only got one foot free in time. Hence, “almost” falling. Luckily I was at a section with piles of leaves versus possibly falling down a steep cliff.

Problem #2: I always bonk around mile 20 no matter the ride. Thank GOD for GU chomps and Clif bars but how do I prevent the bonk & what is the best way to effectively refuel when riding??

Fast forwarding to the run. The first mile is brutal!! Imagine a chubby toddler hanging on to each of your quads while running. That’s what mile 1 feels like for me. After the first mile though, the toddlers run off & take a nap somewhere until around mile 7.5ish when they’ve multiplied somehow & now you have one on your back as well. Miles 2 – 7 were actually pretty relaxing & oddly enough – enjoyable even. I’m well aware I’m a crazy freak like that. I was able to maintain an average of about a 9.5min mile. This is a lot slower than I usually run but after the swim and bike I’m quite impressed it was that fast. Or that I did it at all.

Besides working on, well… everything, at this point (Problem #3) I think I need to focus a lot of energy on doing brick (running and biking) workouts. If I can nail down this transition I’ll feel a lot more comfortable & prepared for the tri. I’m not sure if anything can be done about my swimming (dis)abilities at this point or ever.

Problem #4: STARVATION!!!!! I’m constantly eating because I’m constantly hungry (or bored). I’m starving after the swim, I’m starving in the middle and at the end of my bike ride, and starving around mile 5 of the run. And when I say starving, I mean I am angry-hungry (“hangry” so they say). I know that this problem is extremely obvious considering the amount of calories I’m burning, but what is the best way to combat the hunger without having a sudden urge to run off into the trees hunting for food mid-run?

Ok enough with the problems. I swam a mile, biked 34 (ehh more like 30.... but I’m counting it.) and then ran for 10 miles. Not with transitions as fast as the actual race but it was still good timing. Also happy to report no injuries thus far and some really sweetn tan lines.

The fact that I KNOW I can do the long course, I still have time to train and that my body can go beast mode is awesome! Thank you body, for what was one of my best birthday presents this year. Can.Not.Wait. until I redeem my spa day coupon after the race!!! I should also mention that this training has given me such a great appreciation and love for yoga.

Please let me know if you have any recommendations, comments, etc for any of the problems I mentioned, or any comments in general really. Especially if they include eating a lot of pizza… which I fully intend to do later. J

xoxo  -E

Since a monthish ago...

Geez ok this blog thing isn't for me as much as I had wanted it to be. It's been over a month since my last entry & it's a struggle for me to even keep it up this much. Okayyyy soooo quick (ha!) recap of the last 30ish days:

-I'm still one of the slowest swimmers out there. It's a victory for me if I'm not in last place. I've yet to be complimented on my speed and swimming talents... only on my ambition and perseverance :). But I've started my 5:45-7AM (yes, A.M.) coached workouts so I can work on speed and technique. Can't wait to blog about how I got my 1st sub-20min time.
-Running and biking are right on schedule. I even signed up for a half-century ride in a few weeks. Wait, what??  My training schedule that I make up as I go along requires me to do a combo of 2 out of the 3 sports per day....
 Except for Thursdays. Ahhhhh glorious glorious Thursdays.

-I'm looking forward to training for my first full marathon this Fall (wait, what??) because it only requires me to be good at one sport.
-In addition to the aforementioned statement, I'll also be getting a lot more sleep after the Tri. Unless I sign myself up for a half IronMan in Oceanside or something. Hmmm....  ;)
-In looking at these past few months and the next few to follow, I'm accepting that this is more of a lifestyle and not just a hobby. And I'm SO IN!! *spoken from a certifiably crazy woman*
-While this takes up a good amount of my time/life/energy, I'm extremely thankful for it. In addition to discovering my family & friends make an awesome THE best cheer squad, it also keeps me from getting into trouble or caring about much else in life #stupidboys #hangovers ... not much damage I can do when I have to be up before the sun the next day to workout ;)

-Ambition sometimes does trump talent

-My body hates me less on a daily basis. It's waved the white flag (with racing stripe tan lines) and is more accepting of the hell I put it through... and occasionally gets wine and pizza for good behavior.

-No thinking about anything serious or making any monumental decisions past 8pm. I've had this same rule for years, but my cutoff has been cutback by few hours.

-I've uttered the words "I'm really excited for the track workout tonight!" more than once. (see statement above re: crazy lady)

Most people think I'm nutso, and the other half totally gets it. And I love both sides equally for what they bring to the table. Andddd considering it's now past 11pm I'm gonna wrap this up before I get mushy or start pulling in quotes from dead people & explaining how they directly relate to my life.

HAAAAPPY ALMOST THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo, E

Mini Tri

Yesterday I did my own version of a mini-triathlon. I've been biking to/from work everyday (approx 7 miles round trip. Clocking over 30 miles during the week. Not like I'm keeping track.), and then did my usual Wednesday night 1K swim WITH the run this time. OK OK... not the whole run, but at least part of it. So I didn't do all 3 events together per say, but I did them all in less than a 12-hour period so I'm going to count it.

Needless to say... I'm tired. My BODY is tired. But last night I was in endorphin heaven!! #worthit (Yeah. I'm single in my mid-20s & get my kicks from swimming in seaweed & having helmet hair. Don't judge me.) Not only did I accomplish all 3 events *that I will eventually be good at* in 1 day, I knocked about 12 minutes off my swim time from last week and was still able to run. Again this does not mean that my time was good... it means my time was less embarrassing than the week before.

I cannot get over the fact that in less than 1 month, my swimming skills (while still less than mediocre) have improved SO dramatically! This is fantastic news for anyone who wants to start up swimming too, eh?? It's fantastic news for me at least because I'm totally motivated to get out there next week & take even MORE time off my swim and do the WHOLE run. Fingers crossed.

Gotta give another big shout out to the peeps. Yes, you. I know you're one person who might not think the thing you said/did made any sort of difference but it did! I mean... collectively... having so many encouraging words, tips and having so many people willing to put in the time to help me out is unreal. I'm feelin' the love, y'all!!!

I know I probably sound super lame getting excited over a not-so-great swim time & being able to ride a big girl bike, but that's where I'm at. I'm sure a lot of you are thinking "Aw. That's so cute. I remember my first race". Yeah yeah, I know. I'm still working on taking off the training wheels & floaties while you got 1st place in Iron Man 3 years in a row and qualify for the US Olympics. I GET IT. I'll get there too... eventually. Bear with me, just don't pity me.  :)  #laughatmypain

Back on track: I'm stoked. Tired, but stoked. I can only hope that my progress continues as it has been the past few weeks. I realize that there will be plateaus, but the fact that I'm actually doing what I set out to do... & can actually DO it is pretty great. Just don't ask me how I'm doing on an "off" day ;).

If I can still inject humor into it, I will still blog about it.

<3 E

Three Strokes, You're Out

So I went for my third ocean swim today, & although I'm still embarrassing slow I AM getting better. Disclaimer: this does not mean I'm good. This just means I'm less worried about dying & can now focus more on my strength & technique. Instead of doing the backstroke & singing Sara Evans "A Little Bit Stronger" or channeling my inner Dory, I can actually swim quasi-proper now although I still sing songs in my head to make it go by faster. It's a survival self-soothing instinct to not think about sharks, seaweed, drowning, etc.

A few of us started a Saturday morning swim group that is the same course we do on Wednesday nights (1000m). Yes I signed up for a extra day of torture a week... for FUN. I just feel like the more exposure I get to the water the better I'll get. And it helps that I'm training with the fastest swimmers :). Like many other aspects of life, when I want help & advice to get where I want to be, I ask the people who already are there. I like to pick their brains and find out how they got to that place and try and soak up as much advice as possible from them because they're the ones who have been on the journey and are "walking the walk".

The only downside to swimming with the bests in a non-race environment is that they swim ahead of me but then wait for me to catch up. My secret is out!! There is absolutely no way that I can hide how slow/bad I am when all eyes are on me. I'll chalk it up as a good lesson in being humble. I am thankful to have all of the pointers though. It's the little things like where to enter the water, how to start the race faster, how to get my wetsuit off less spastically.

I'm also at the "light switch" point where I had previously thought I had pleeeeenty of time to train, to now thinking "oh shit. I have A LOT of work to do in the next few months". So I'm upping the training but having serious doubts about whether I can do it or not. I can tell you one thing: I'm tired and my body hurts EVERY DAY.

I'm thankful for all of the outside help & my motivation to meet my goal, let's just see if I can actually pull it off!

I'M ALiiiiiiiiVE!!!

Friends & family -

You can safely assume that since I'm writing this blog I am, in fact, alive. I survived my first(!) ocean race sans a thunderstorm thank the Lord. Nor was I attacked by sharks, jellyfish or large tangled piles of seaweed. With a full-length wetsuit & neoprene cap, the water temperature was actually pretty bearable. All sounds pretty successful, right? WRONG.

I was very concerned about everything except for my actual ability to swim. If you have a grandmother, or know any grandmother actually, & you asked her to swim 1000 meters, she would have beat me. My "swimming" more closely resembled a person trying really really hard not to drown. There were a few lifeguards out in the water monitoring the swimmers, & I'm pretty sure all of them were thinking "is she ok? is there a new swimming stroke we're unaware of? do we help this sad non-swimmer swimmer & drag her to shore to save her dignity & possibly her life??".

I'm not exaggerating. That's what they were thinking. I could clearly see the pity in their eyes even from my super sexy fogged-up goggles*.

I guess the point is, is that I did it at all right? I keep telling my ego that. My new friend Amy said it best: we're starting with our bar very low (I speak for myself, she's actually quite decent) & we can only improve from here on (unless I drown or get eaten by a shark).

What the most awesome thing about all of this is the people. Well actually... also challenging myself. But let's get back to the people. Everyone is so great! And helpful! I feel so blessed to be in such a great community of people committed to athleticism and positivity. Everyone is so willing to share their knowledge & tips and offer words of encouragement. Some even have gone so far as to offer to train with me (probably a nice warm-down for them). Even though I was feeling pretty down about how awful I did, I had so many people say how great I did, that I'll get better in no time, etc etc. By the way... this is one of the rare times in life I don't mind people lying straight to my face.

Even though my water talents are less than adequate, I'm fully committed to racing every week. I will definitely need to increase the amount of days I train but I'm determined to be more like Michael Phelps and less like Kate Winslet in Titanic.

Will keep you posted on my progress (which will not be happening this weekend)! Also please don't show up to any of my races until I get a lot better :)

Off to STAGECOACH, Y'ALL!!!


<3, E


*Goggles, full-length wetsuit AND neoprene cap??? I bet you have an awesome visual. ~I don't think you're ready for this jelly~

Back For Good?

Yup. Back on the air. Back in business. Back back back.

I'm hoping that since I'm starting on a whole new journey I'll feel motivated to track my progress on a more or semi-regular basis. My last catalyst was tracking the joys of "fun"employment and now it's about the opposite. This is more about taming (or failing to tame) my wild ambition to accomplish a laundry list of goals, & then some goals on top on that.

I'm starting by making this my haphazard newb guide to "Signing Up for a Triathlon & Sticking to it Whether You Can Do It Or Not". Coming to a Barnes & Noble near you. #overlyambitious #whatwasithinking #stubbongermangenes

Since starting this journey I've picked many brains (thank you to my self-nominated mentors!) & Googled countless searches for guidance on what equipment to buy, the best way to train, etc. I may even have to consult a loan officer before this is over. So I have the equipment, have started to train... slowly & sporadically. I have yet to get in the water but like so many other decisions I make in life, I'm going to wait for the worst timing possible & just go for it without too much thought. Why change now?

In less than 2 days I'm going to jump straight into the freezing cold ocean, in a (possible) thunderstorm, with my way-too-tight wetsuit, with sharks *(there was one around here a week ago that killed a pregnant sea lion that my family made sure to mention to me multiple times & therefore when I say "sharks" I'm completely validated), and with having zero ocean swimming experience. What's the worst that could happen. I'M SO EXCITED!!

I can-not wait to report back on how this goes. This blog that will one day be made into a bestseller might actually be in the tragedy Comedy section instead of the Motivation/How-To section like I planned.

On a brighter note, not too worried about the running & biking parts #massivecalves. If there is any major worry it's not to eat s**t on my bike. Considering the amount of spasticness I possess, that's actually a pretty legit concern. Alright... keeping it short (by my standards) & sweet, & leaving you with the cliffhanger of whether there will be a blog post Wed/Thurs or not. *Disclaimer: I'm leaving for Stagecoach (woot!!) on Thursday so I may be too distracted to blog by thoughts of cowboys country music.

<3 E

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